out from the brokenness
I was, in every sense of the word, broken.
Then, I found healing in You.
I found trust in You.
I found safety and reassurance in You.
I found security in You.
It is in You that I have learned to love again, to trust another with my heart again.
God, You are wonderful.
You are glorious.
Thank You, for giving me joy, for all the love that you have placed in my life.
I failed but I learned something very important that day:
”Control of the tongue" and the true meaning of "Allowing God to take control”.
He gives and takes away.
He knows what is best.
One door closes but another will definitely open.
My next interview will be on the 23rd.
Hopefully then, I would finally get accepted.
I am immensely excited for that (:
Jeremiah 29:11 (:
is this it?
and I fall,
and I fall.
Deeper and deeper each day.
Is there an end to this love?
Some bitter tragedy waiting behind, maybe?
I lie and wait for this fairytale to end.
I try not to believe but I want to.
Maybe it’s just end of my nightmare after all.
"I just lied to get to your apartment, now I’m staying here just for awhile…"
"Obstacles = Opportunity"
ramblings of a mind during a stopover.
explosions in the sky - B.A.M
I can’t help but wonder maybe, just maybe, you’re going to be the one that saves me. Or you could also be the one who obliterates me from the face of this earth completely.
It’s funny how everything just slowly falls into place amongst the chaos and confusion around. Things are not going to get any easier but it is the circumstances that bring us closer to one another. It helps us appreciate what we have, and how good we have it.
So many conversations going on in one place, yet only few would be significant enough to be remembered, to have the power to change a life. How many conversations of that sort have you had?
We all try to be different yet we end up exactly the same. We dress the same, we look the same, we act the same. Are we truly different after all?
Hello from Changyi Airport, Singapore.
It is the look that you give me,
It sends shivers down my spine.
In a good way, of course.
I secretly hope that you will always be mine.
It is the sacrifices that we have made
And the lengths we would go for one another
I do hope that it would not go to waste
That we’d end up with each other.
It is the way we both try
And the way you understand
I love how I can be myself and cry
Knowing that you will be there till the end.
It is the way we talk,
And how we goof around.
I like the way we walk,
and the way you keep my feet on solid ground.
With you I am sure
It is you that I want.
I know not where, when or how
But with you, we will both figure things out.
"Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It’s for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It’s for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don’t see it nearly enough…” - Unknown
Till next time! God bless!
the best i’ve ever had.
I want to call,
To ask if you are alright.
But I can’t.
I don’t want to cry when I hear your voice. I know I will.
You’re in pain.
Your hair is gone.
Mine will soon be, too.
I want to do it, I want to do it for you.
I don’t know how you’re feeling.
I can only imagine it all in my head.
I want to take it all away from you.
I wish I could.
All I can do is read about your updates from mom, from everyone else.
You’re done with your second chemo, and you’re standing strong.
I’m praying hard everyday, and you’re always on my mind.
We’re standing here with you, fighting alongside with you.
I hope that I will muster up enough courage to call you.
No, I won’t procrastinate anymore.
It will be today.
Please answer the phone.
After spending three whole days on the AmTrak, this is what I have learned:
- Always bring food - bird food, crappy food, any food would taste delicious when you’re on the verge of starvation.
- Pray for good seat partners - antisocial ones WILL scare you
- Pray for protection - people can get pretty interesting on the plane
- ALWAYS have a blanket and pillow - when you’re sleeping on a train, these things matter A LOT
- Keep your eyes OPEN - the things that you will see, the sceneries are breathtakingly beautiful!
- The toilets WILL be dirty after the 2nd day.
- Bring plenty of water
- Be aware of your belongings.
- Be nice to people, help around and offer food.
- When random person hits on you, try your best to be polite no matter how creepy the person may be.
- There is a reason why they call it smoke stops. Don’t expect it to not smell like a bar.
- Stretch! Even more so when your butt is aching. It means you SHOULD get up and move about.
- Do not go into a carriage which was not assigned to you. You might end up going to New Orleans or Chicago.
That’s all I’ve got so far. I have arrived safely in Dallas and I am a happy backpacker! (: Being on board the Amtrak was definitely an eye opening experience. Can’t wait till my trip to Phoenix! :D
THANK YOU JESUS FOR THE SAFE JOURNEY!
scared to death.
I am everything that I want to be.
I am my past.
I am my present;
and I mold my own future.
I am the hurt that has been afflicted upon me.
The pain of my yesterdays,
and the joys of my tomorrows.
I choose to love,
and to love I shall.
For what’s life without love?
We are constantly searching for perfection.
What about self-acceptance?
When will we ever realize that being ourselves is more than enough?
Stop the hurt, the emotional abuse.
Stop belittling yourself.
You are worth every sacrifices made.
You are a wonderful individual, capable to great things.
Be the best person that you can be.
There is always something to learn from everything.
Open your eyes.
Be cautious of what you take in.
Images taken from Google Images.
He is everything you’re not and everything that you will never be to me.
So thank you for letting me go that September night. If you hadn’t, I would have never realize what I have been missing out on. I would have never gone on this adventure and I would have never met people who would change my life forever.
Thank you and have a wonderful life.